October 18th, 2004


Mixed Blessings

It's stormy. Which is good. (See icon.)

I'm mildly depressed, which is bad. (See icon.)

I'm not at work, which is good.

I'm not at work because I have a headache so persistent and pre-migrainish that a) I've been fighting it unsuccessfully all weekend, and b) it's making me nauseated. Which is bad.

I suspect the only thing that's going to make me, in the longish run, not mildly depressed, is writing some S/X fic (that doesn't suck). Which is good insofar as I'm at least aware of it.

I don't have an S/X fic that doesn't suck to write; the WIPs still have the same problems that made them WIPs in the first place, the ones I never even started still have the same issues that made me never start them in the first place, and I can pull off spontaneously-generated fic about 2 days out 365. This is not one of those days. And I'm still generally gunshy of writing, trying to avoid it and then not knowing if I'm really enjoying it or not even when it's happening. Which is bad.

Also I'm supposed to be working on my ats_endofdays project anyway. (Which is so not going to be fic.)

I'm going back to bed now. Which is soft and cool, even if it does end up hurting my neck eventually, thus continuing today's theme.

La la la la la Guess what came in the mail today?

Despite the scurrilous rumours perpetrated by one "thebratqueen" (if indeed that's her REAL name...) I do NOT engage in puppetry of LIES!

You'll want to click the first pic, then use the 'next' link to view the rest, as the captions on the individual pics are longer than and different from the brief titles in the index.


Also in the mail came a box of classic songvid tapes from zortified! I so picked the best day to get sick...