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I Blame the Dutch mpoetess
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E-mail.

The one freaking thing I forgot to back up before reformatting my hard drive. Because I always use webmail, and I *forgot* that I had three. bleeding. years. worth of e-mail downloaded to Eudora, in order to finally clean out my webmail folders.

Every piece of feedback since 2000 (up to sometime early this year). Every e-mail exchanged with zortified or wolfling [for some reason I hadn't downloaded those yet] or Saber... every original piece of CG feedback, back when I was writing it and people actually had things to say besides "Hey, are you ever going to continue this?"

*poit*

Vanished.

Fuck.

[screaming crying fit]

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squashed

2003-08-13 03:53 pm (UTC) (Link)

Ack! *hugs you*

mpoetess

2003-08-14 06:37 am (UTC) (Link)

:) Thanks.

giogio

2003-08-13 03:57 pm (UTC) (Link)

*cries for you*

I've got e-mail dating back 10 years in my archive... it's moved computers in plain text files several times and the really important bits are printed out as well.

mpoetess

2003-08-13 04:15 pm (UTC) (Link)

Ironically, the stuff that doesn't matter quite so much -- places where my fic is archived, awards/contest stuff, general e-mails about my site that aren't about one specific story -- I hadn't yet downloaded and still have them. It's the conversations with individual people, and the feedback for specific stories, that's getting me. That's like... the proof that I've been here, you know? And for all I write these days, sometimes it feels like my little stash of Bitter Old Fic Hag feedback is the only thing I've got.

rubywisp

2003-08-13 04:00 pm (UTC) (Link)

Oh god. *hugs*

mpoetess

2003-08-14 06:38 am (UTC) (Link)

Thank you. :)

wesleysgirl

2003-08-13 04:14 pm (UTC) (Link)

::Hugs you very tightly::

I'm so sorry, what a tremendous loss.

::Hugs you more::

mpoetess

2003-08-14 06:44 am (UTC) (Link)

It really shouldn't be a tremendous loss, you know? It's just e-mail. I'm really trying to blow it off, for my own sanity. With varying levels of nonexistent success, of course. ;-)

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mpoetess

2003-08-13 04:22 pm (UTC) (Link)

I'll take a look when I get home (yes, I just now figured it out while I'm sitting 8 miles away, snort. Because my roomie, IM-ing me from home, mentioned that she had just installed Eudora on her PC, and I went... Eudora...ohhhhhhh fuuuuuuuuuuck.) -- thanks for poining it out.

I'm trying to sort of zen out and accept that the stuff is gone, but it would be nice if something could be recovered.

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obsessedmuch

2003-08-13 04:26 pm (UTC) (Link)

Ow, fucking ow! *hugs you* Oh god... just... ow...

mpoetess

2003-08-14 06:52 am (UTC) (Link)

[zen mode] It's all in my head anyway -- I know the feedback got written and the conversations happened; obviously the parts of it that my brain can't write to its own hard drive aren't something I was meant to be hanging on to... [/zen]

wahhh! ;-)

ladycat777

2003-08-13 04:31 pm (UTC) (Link)

Oh, sweety, I'm so sorry *hugs you*

I hope that the recovery program can get at least some of it; there's very good programs out there, and if you haven't installed too much on top. . .

*crosses fingers*

mpoetess

2003-08-14 06:54 am (UTC) (Link)

Thanks. :) *hugs back*

I have the feeling that a) the reformat was too good, and/or b) I've reinstalled way too much (including Adobe Premiere, twice) -- I'm not getting anything useable with the file recovery program I tried.

byrne

2003-08-13 04:32 pm (UTC) (Link)

Oh no. I'm so sorry.

Oh man.


*hugs tight*

mpoetess

2003-08-14 06:57 am (UTC) (Link)

Ah well. If nothing else, it's taught me to either let things the hell go, or paranoically back up *everything*, everywhere. (I think we're going for door number two, given my obsessive compulsive tendencies...)

*hugs DW* (Which I just typo'ed as "Hugs DQ" !) (Which would probably be funnier if I was sure whether Canadians call Dairy Queen 'DQ')

vampsarecool

2003-08-13 05:02 pm (UTC) (Link)

Sorry Hun ...that has to suck. *Huggels*

Hope

mpoetess

2003-08-14 06:59 am (UTC) (Link)

Thanks :)

piedmargaret

2003-08-13 05:08 pm (UTC) (Link)

Ugh hon. I hadn't read this when you said what you did on AIM, so I had no idea what you were referring to. This sucks totally. So much gone.

((many commiserating hugs))

mpoetess

2003-08-14 07:01 am (UTC) (Link)

Yeah, sorry about that. Again. Didn't mean to make you wonder if I'd gone off the deep end. When you asked if I was still good with the 4 Englishmen, I thought you were obliquely referring to my post and asking if I was too freaked out to work on Spike atm. (Which it turned out I sort of was, but mostly because I was trying and failing to make the file recovery thing work, not because I actively couldn't concentrate on His Shiny Glowyness... ;-) )

manna

2003-08-13 05:11 pm (UTC) (Link)


That's so horrible.

If it turns out you can't recover anything from the disk, you could try appealing for people to send you old mails. No good for feedback, I guess, though. Ouch.

And about the recovery -- use the computer as little as possible until you try to get stuff back. Every time it writes to disk there's a chance it's overwriting the sectors you want.

mpoetess

2003-08-14 07:04 am (UTC) (Link)

Haven't had a lot of success with the file recovery, sadly - even if I did manage to find the files I'm not sure if they could be opened, since they'd be Eudora formatted e-mails, not simple text files.

I've received a couple of pretty comprehensive archives of feedback from at least one person, though, which is really sweet of her. It's nice to have a few things, even if it's just sort of the archive sampler. ;-)

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Re: gleep.

mpoetess

2003-08-14 07:05 am (UTC) (Link)

Hee! For which I love you. And most of yours has been on LJ, so I have those anyway.


Though I don't have the Buffy/Harmony DP backstory that you started - that went the way of all DP feedback from before May or so -- pfft. Do you still have it?

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Re: Oh, sweetheart

mpoetess

2003-08-14 07:16 am (UTC) (Link)

Thank you so much. *hug*

(Obviously I'd hit Wallow Mode right around the time I commented to Gio yesterday. I do know I haven't disappeared off the face of the earth or anything. It's just hard to remember that sometimes, when the last piece of S/X that I wrote was sometime last .. October? November? And even that was angsty no-actual-relationship S/X. All of which is totally down to *me*, though -- it's hard to sound sincere in one's wallowing when the simple asnwer is "Write some, then, stupid.")

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mpoetess

2003-08-14 07:17 am (UTC) (Link)

Thank you. Ah well -- it's an object lesson, if nothing else: back up everything. Everywhere. Thrice.

mabiana

2003-08-13 09:44 pm (UTC) (Link)

*hugs*

mpoetess

2003-08-14 07:17 am (UTC) (Link)

Thanks. :)

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